Some bad news stop you dead on your tracks and others...

make you so angry that they fuel your dreams. It so happens that I have been dissed by a "friend" that feels more important than me. It is this "friend's" understanding that his life and his job are more important than most people and so he does not need to apologize or be nice to others who are beneath him.
The discovery that one of my friends thinks this way is not only appalling, it is downright disgusting, and something I do not tolerate. Let me start by saying that no ones life is more important than any other life. Second, I want you to know that I am done being everyone's babysitter and being there for everyone when I have yet to see a friend in PR who treats me the same way that I treat them, except for P.A.T. All my other friends are more than glad to call and cry but have no time for me. I'm done. Every time I have a problem, I sit and eat my weight in chocolate but when they have problems they call me and vent their frustrations. Not anymore. I will not make your life my problem, if you need help, hire a psychologist. As far as the "friend", I have been eliminated out of his life so I really don't have to tell him to fry an egg.
It did hurt but I have so many personal issues to take care of that this is just a smudge in the windshield of my life. I am going to keep exercising and doing well. Keep trying.

The effect of news in your plans

On Saturday I found out that someone close to me is very ill. I am not talking cold or flu sickness. We are talking liver, kidney, maybe even cancer kind of ill. The kind of illness that you don't know when or where it came from and whether you are going to be OK or not. Test results will determine final diagnosis. The worst part is that this person does not know that I know. Yes, I am a great actress, but it is draining to talk to someone, remain in a good mood and pretend nothing is going on.
The interesting thing is the effect of this information. I see people all the time, who make amazing improvements in their lives despite setbacks and troubles. I have to be honest here, I found out yesterday, by accident, and it was a bad day, to say the least. It stopped me in my tracks. It's not like I have not lost people before: my two brothers, my best friend, cousins, uncles, aunts... I'm just tired of loosing people. People think that I am a strong person because when it really matters, I am a rock. I tend to look like nothing is going to hurt me and I can play it cool and be strong for my friends and family. But you know, it is hard to pretend. It is draining, and this time, I don't think I can handle it. I am however, willing to try.
Tomorrow I start another phase of my exercise routine. I am adding a 20 minute intensive workout divided by certain body parts tomorrow. Mondays is for glutes. Tuesday is for arms. Wednesday is for abdominals. Thursday is for legs and Fridays is for Back and Chest. Wish me luck since this is on top of the other workouts.
Keep trying.