Loosing weight is a never ending battle

As I sit here on my break, and analyze my eating habits, my exercise and just my general lifestyle, I've come upon a thought. Why is loosing weight such a hard thing to do? I watch the shows on TV, I plan my meals, I read the books. I understand that I did not get to be this big overnight (even though it feels that way). Yet I want to loose the weight as quickly as possible without having those dreaded skin folds that need to be removed with surgery.
In my opinion, this is a big proposition. I don't even know if they are mutually exclusive. I believe that if I loose more than a pound a week, I will have skin folds. But I would love to loose three to five pounds a week. In my delusion, I honestly think that it can be done safely. I must be loosing my mind.
I am planning my strategy and starting next week I will let you in on all the details. Wish me luck and KEEP trying.

Accountability does not make weight loss easier

So, here I am, many months after I started this. Not only have I not lost any weight, I gained five pounds. I let life get in the way and ate my way out of some difficult times. Guess what? They still hurt. My family members are still sick, my life is not exactly the way I want it.
But something happened in the middle of this hormonal time of the month for me. Clarity emerged. I am 100% responsible for my life, which means, I am 100% responsible for what is going on and specially, how I feel about it. I need to stop moping and get going. I need to improve my existence one day at a time until I achieve certain goals and can move on to bigger and greater things. I have to get out of this because I have the power to change this. All change happens in one second: that is how long it took for me to say "I do" a long time ago. That was how long it took for my life to change when I lost my last pregnancy. That is how long it takes to make a commitment to better your life.
I have been smoke free for almost a year now. I CAN DO THIS.

New beginnings

I now have a Myspace, although I have to work on it because it takes forever to load. I have the coolest pics of the last trip I took and I am spending some time in fixing my "online image".
I started working the graveyard shift at work this week. I have to be honest with you, I love it. It gives me the best hours of the day: it is cool, not hot, the dogs are quiet and the volume of calls is not psychotic. I enjoy actually breathing in between calls and having a clear head from one situation to the next. And yes, I also love having my computer on and working on my stuff when I can. Also, I can file my reports on real time instead of waiting until the end of shift to do so.
I am also cleaning and de-cluttering my house since I moved some furniture around. And finally, I am de-cluttering my life. There are many things that are not necessary in my life to be happy, and the less of that I have, the happier I will be. My efforts are now on my health, my prosperity and my life. No time for losers, arrogant idiots or wannabes. It is time for me to concentrate on ME and give the best of me to my family and friends.