Still working on that list of goals

You would think that wanting so much stuff, filling a list of 101 things you want before you die should be easy. Well, it is not. After five days, I only have 66 and some of them are downright dowdy.

I do have some lofty goals and ambitions, and some silly but cool ones, but I cannot, for the life of me, think of more than 66. I could separate every country in Europe and add about seven or eight individual goals, but that would defeat the purpose of goal #40, live in Europe for a year. When I wrote that I thought about being the nomad, spending a month in each country, traveling by train.

So many things I want to do with my life, but when I am asked, so many becomes not enough. I would think that having anything you want, no limits, would be so great that I would make the list in an hour. It is, in reality, so overwhelming, after five days I am still 44 goals short. Anybody has any suggestions?

Keep trying.

Goal setting - writer's block

I am reading a book that challenged me to write a list of measurable goals. Things like: trip to Italy in the summer of 2010 or learn to scuba-dive and get certified by the summer of 2009. I have the piece of paper and the pen ready, and to my shock, even though I have tons of goals, I get writer's block.

What is so hard about putting goals on paper? Could it be that my brain knows that once they appear on paper I have to work on achieving them? And that terrifies me? Wow, what a dilemma.

I don't know why all of a sudden I find it so hard to get through this. I know it has something to do with the seriousness of my intentions. I have every intention on following through on that list. I know I can do it, but fear is paralyzing me.

I will not give up on my dreams. I will not sit here and pretend that I don't have goals and dreams I want to reach. I will not fake my way through life anymore. I will do what needs to be done, to get my goals on paper and start working towards achieving them. This time, fear is not going to stop me. I will keep trying.

Celebration's over, its time to go back to work

My birthday was on Friday and I had a great time. I went to a fancy restaurant with my girlfriend. We went to a couple of different places. We had fun. Then I got home at 1:30 AM and had to help at work (at 3:00 AM) so I was up until 5:30 AM. It has been a long time since I had lived through a 23 1/2 hour day. It was fun, but harder than in the past. But then I got up at 10:30 AM to get ready for a lunch date with another BFF. She invited me to lunch. We had a great time as well.

So now, I have all this great places I tried for the first time, and I would like to go back to. And the best part is the food was exquisite. Now I have to up my workouts. So, this morning, I did 15 min. on the stationary bike, 20 to 25 minutes of salsa lessons and about 10 mins. of weight bearing, upper body exercises. I feel like a million bucks. And this afternoon I have a 30 min. walk.

I guess the good part about November is my birthday celebrations usually last most of the month. The bad thing is that they are over and I have to go back to life. But, I have great memories, and I am already planning to have an even bigger party next year...when my birthday is on a SATURDAY.

Not everything has to be work or workout. Some times, it is OK to have fun. Keep trying.